The Hardest Lesson 

The hardest lesson I have yet to learn is how to let go or say goodbye to someone you love. To see a loved one in pain and fighting so hard to live is heart breaking to say the least. You try to stay strong even though you’re crumbling on the inside. You smile on the outside even though you’re hurting on the inside. For days on end you hold back or swallow your tears because you don’t want them to see that you too are hurting. Man, let me tell you, cancer sucks.

Now, it’s getting harder and harder for me to write. My desire is fading and my determination to write is wading, but still I write. I’m on a time crunch now more than ever because I’m pushing myself to get this story written. Yes, I must finish my second novel before it’s too late. I’m painfully focused and I don’t plan on losing that focus anytime soon. I’m 75% finished with my first draft and I know that if I push myself just a little harder, I can finish the rest. And I will.

Peace, love and blessings to you all.

Until next time… 

32 thoughts on “The Hardest Lesson 

  1. I can so relate to this post. I lost my Dad to cancer 25 years ago, and it still hurts. We were at his bedside in the ICU when he breathed his last. The pain is crushing. A quarter of a century later, here I am, still hurting and terribly missing my Dad.

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  2. It can be hard to focus on your writing when you are worrying about your loved one. Try to remember to take some time out for yourself and try to do something you love.

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  3. I could feel your pain reading your words. I have lost loved ones to cancer and it is the hardest thing I had to go through.

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  4. I’m sorry about your pain, but I think it’s good that you keep writing to let it out and don’t forget that there are people that care about you.

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  5. Keep writing. It is an outlet for the pain you’re going through in later they can be shared with those that are going through it also. Don’t ever stop writing!

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  6. I am so sorry. But don’t stop writing. I know you might feel like you can’t, but you should. It will help sort out your feelings and can possibly help others going through the same thing.

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